Heroin Support Blog

Adam Lee Sparenblek
9.13.1980-10.24.2015

I lived in fear that what happened one year ago today could or would happen. Addiction is real. There's so much shame and guilt around it. I hope our generation and future generations change that...a last letter, journal entry, to Adam. The boys & I love & miss you to the end, every day...

I remember seeing you face down and lifeless. And I remember what it did to me, how my knees buckled effortlessly. Kneeling at your side, begging God to bring you back. I knew it was too late. I knew only a miracle could bring you back. It felt like I had just jumped off a cliff, free falling. Sheer terror. Our 5 year old had brought me to you, waiting for me at the back door to get home from work. He was talking in a panic, wanting to take me to you quickly.

I initiated CPR as I screamed for God, sobbing over your lifeless body. I've never given chest compressions before, even after years of being a nurse at the hospital. And there I was, counting compressions on my husband while our son stood at your side. When I let the officers and paramedics inside I collapsed to my knees again. Screaming in prayer. Every time I looked up at the police officer to see if my miracle was granted, pleading with them to work harder to find a pulse, I was stabbed with the unbearable realization again when I would see the officer nod his head, no...no pulse. More minutes would pass and more silence and nods from officers that didn't want to look at me, that didn't know what to say - you weren't coming back. I was removed from the house while they carried you out. The coroner came to see me almost immediately. Already asking questions. They actually do that - they actually make a person answer questions in the same hour after finding their loved one deceased. All along I couldn't even comprehend the last hour, I had just talked to you on the phone 8 hours prior. We just said I love you. I received your text 5 hours before. Is this even real life?? You're really gone?? Just like that. All those who loved you, their lives turned upside down. How does this even happen, how does such a deadly drug exist in our world, and it's actually sought after. In the blink of an eye, one decision to feel a high, took you to your resting place. It didn't have to happen, it just feels so senseless...

For days I didn't go upstairs. Every walk up those stairs is a reminder of your last breath taken. The morning of October 24th is forever etched in my memory. It crippled everything inside me. To see your arms a shade of white and streaks of blue that told me in a split second, my best friend, my partner in life, the father of my children, is gone. When I rolled you over, you were already stiff. Your face was so incredibly swollen and bruised, a dark blue and purple. Was it even you? Was this even real... vomit was all around you, your mouth still full. I screamed for you to move. I screamed for Jesus. I pounded on your chest. No God, NO!! You're not f*cking doing this to me! Don't tell me our son is standing here next to his dead father. His daddy. Give him back. Don't take him. NO GOD, NO.

You didn't come back. God wasn't there. And for a long time, I questioned if He even exists. I bargained. Take me. F*cking TAKE ME. Bring my husband back and f*cking take me God Damnit. Strike me dead, torture me. Put me through the fires of hell, just bring him back. Give him back to the boys. Give him back to his parents. Give him back to his best friend, Mike. Give him back to us.

I was empty and lifeless. I could only hear the sound of my soul screaming until the mother of your first born knelt down in the grass beside me. I'll never forget us holding each other while they put you down into the ground, to your final resting place. "Is this really it?" she said. We became bonded in the sons we share with you, bonded in the tears we mourned together over your loss. Reality. Painful reality.

The days, week & months moving forward I was numb. I was in shock. Just going through motions. I wanted to see you again. I wanted to have a last conversation with you. I wasn't ready to let you go. I toyed with the idea of suicide. I toyed with the idea of making myself overdose in the same spot you did. My mind took me to places and thoughts I didn't know were possible. I wanted answers. I wanted to know...I wanted to know what high is so great to risk your own life. Drinking myself to sleep for the first couple months, I wondered if I too would become an addict. Somehow through those days, I clung to our boys, someone has to be there for them. Someone has to tell them and raise them to know you, to keep your memory alive. And that someone was going to have to be me. Alone. Not how we had planned this babe. It was you & me, raising our little men. We were supposed to watch them grow together.

Oddly enough, we had some deep conversations that week. We had reconciled and were living happily as a family again. Our ups and downs the past year had tested us, questioned our commitment to one another. It had me thinking, I wanted validation that our great week was going to last. We were in the kitchen hugging, and I looked at you, "Promise me, promise me we will be together forever? In this life and in the next? Promise me wherever we go after this life, that we won't stop until we find each other?" "I promise you." If I can thank God for anything, it's for that week. It's for that moment. It's for our last dinner as a family that Thursday night. It's for hearing boo say the prayer that night at the dinner table. It's for the spider that was in the hallway that made me scream and us all laugh when I made you get it because mommy doesn't do spiders. God, do I miss you beeb.
The countless days, nights & car rides home I have cried over the loss of you. Mostly for our boys. All three of them. The life they will lead without you by their side. Their sporting events and games. Their first prom. Their first time driving a car. Their graduation from high school, from college. Their wedding day. Making you a grandpa. The future grandchildren you'll have that won't get to know you. Won't get to be spoiled by you. Laugh with you. I just can not.

I cry for myself. For what could have been. For not being able to call you every night after work, to ask how you and the boys are and our plans for dinner. For what was in our greatest moments and memories. Watching the boys do amazing things together - smiling at each other knowing what we created. Amazing sons. For songs we sang to one another, for inside jokes only we knew about, for late night conversations confiding in one another. For our marriage - our bond - that continued to draw us to one another through our ups and downs, as we had many.
For your best friend, Mike. For your brothers, for your sister. For seeing grown men cry. For your parents, heartbroken with tears streaming down their faces over the loss of their first born. For watching your siblings carry you in a casket...some of them still in their 20s. For having to embrace the man that stood by your side at our wedding and tell him you're gone. The both of you spoke 5 different times that Friday...making plans for the four of us to all go out Saturday night. Amanda, Mike & I have been left to grieve the date night that never happened. The laughs and fun we would have had but didn't. The two of them have been the most loyal friends to you - even in death. They have been here for the boys & I and have not fallen short of honoring you the best way anyone could - through their love and care of your boys.

You are missed. You are loved. You are thought of daily, hourly. You took a part of me with you. And you've gifted me w the very best parts of you - your heart continues to beat in the boys you've blessed Jayme & I with. Thank you, beeb. Thank you for our boys, our memories, and for our journey - I'm grateful you chose to spend and share your love & life with me. I look forward to the day I see you again. Until then, rest in peace my love, know that you are forgiven & know that you are my sunshine, my only sunshine...tap 6 times.

Written by Adam wife - Sherry Sparenblek

Below is the last picture of Adam...
a selfie he sent me less than 24 hours before he passed  

Addiction is real. It's not a choice it's a disease. They choose to use in the beginning, yes, but after that it becomes an illness. A disease. No one would choose to overdose, be revived, and overdose again the next day. If anything that goes to show how strong of a hold heroin has on people. The chemical changes in the brain that happen and become permanent.

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2016/05/31 - Joseph Jones - Age 24 yrs - St. Louis, Missouri

Submitted by: Amanda Ward - Sibling

Name: Joseph Jones
State:  Missouri, 63129
Date of Passing: 5/31/2016
Date of Birth: 4/12/1992
Age: 24 

Tell Us About Them:

He was smart and loving. He was so talented with music. He loved to joke and tease me.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He was depressed. He didn't like how his life turned out. He didn't like how he changed and caused people to worry. He carried a burden that he caused. He struggled for 4 years

What Made Them Smile?

Music made him smile. Music is what Joey lived for.

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss everything about him.

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I would say I love you one more time. Tell him that everything was going to be ok.

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2016/04/02 - Stanley Sparks - Age 34 yrs - Tucson, Arizona

Submitted by: Maxine Sparks - Spouse

Name: Stanley Sparks
State:  Arizona, 85701
Date of Passing: 04/02/2016
Date of Birth: 08/13/82
Age: 34 

Tell Us About Them:

Lively and fun, between addiction and a mental illness my beloved was determined to win. He was going to school to be a drug counselor. He wanted to help the youth make sure they had a chance to avoid prison and just help make sure they saw other options. Loving son, brother, father, unclet and husband. He broke alot of hearts the day in his addition and especially the day he passed.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Anything he could get his hands on it was more of not sure of how yo deal with emotions and when he stopped meds for his bipolar.

What Made Them Smile?

Life, sounds crazy but the smile just going to the movies, traveling, just being loved and able to make others smile.

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His love...everything.

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I would have spent the rest of life picking you up. I just wish you would have chosen life and belived in us.

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2011/10/03 - Daniel Lee Ballard - Age 25 yrs - College Station, Texas

Submitted by: Melinda White - Parent

Name: Daniel Lee Ballard
State:  Texas, 77845
Date of Passing: 10-03-2011
Date of Birth: 11-01-1985
Age: 25 

Tell Us About Them:

Lee was a gift. He came seven years after our daughter. He was a very active little boy. He loved to learn about science. He loved family, friends and life.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Lee became addicted to heroin in college. He came home went to three months of rehab, but relapsed a year later dying from the overdose

What Made Them Smile?

He loved dogs, good jokes and a stimulating conversation with friends

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His smile, his sense of humour and just him

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

Lee, I am sorry that I could not help you more in overcoming this disease of addiction. I would have died in place of you in a hearbeat. I will love you for eternity.

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2015/09/01 - Kenneth Hartsock - Age 48 yrs - Fort Mitchell, Kentucky

Submitted by: Teresa Hartsock - Spouse

Name: Kenneth Hartsock
State:  Kentucky, 41017
Date of Passing: 09/01/2015
Date of Birth: 12/16/1966
Age: 48 

Tell Us About Them:

My hubby was the greatest guy you would have ever met in the world he was a great dad he did anything for anybody an not thought twice about it

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

The struggles he had was opiated addiction started with pain pills then went to heroin

What Made Them Smile?

He smile was our childern and our animals

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss the person he use to be he was the one that to charge an made things right he took care of his family when he was sober I miss that guy so much

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you baby I wish I would have been more educated to help you with what you were going through no mistake I will carry on through your eyes an try to help others

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2016/05/26 - Ryan Schulz - Age 36 yrs - Rockford, Illinois

Submitted by: Melissa Jenkins - Sibling

Name: Ryan Schulz
State:  Illinois, 61103
Date of Passing: May 28, 2016
Date of Birth: May 1, 1980
Age: 36 

Tell Us About Them:

Ryan always had a smile on his face. He loved his family deeply and always had a shoulder to lean on. He was an amazing artist and writer. He was a Chef by trade and loved to cook for everyone including the homeless. He believed strongly in his faith and had made peace with the choices he made in the past. Ryan was making every effort to do good, he had a steady full time job (got a promotion the week he died), just purchased a new vehicle, and had his own apartment. He had accomplished a lot over the last year.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Ever since Ryan was a teenager he had used drugs here and there. He got involves with some people who asked him to deliver some drugs and was set up and ended up in prison. Ryan was clean for a year when he relapsed. Unfortunately when Ryan was released from prison he had to return to the same area he used to live due to Parole restrictions and ended up hanging out with the same people. In the end, I feel in my heart, this contributed to his death. Heroin took my brother from me, a son from my mother and father, and an uncle from his niece and nephews.

What Made Them Smile?

When Ryan was spending time with his family is when he would smile, He loved unconditionally. Also, when he was painting or drawing.

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss our conversations. He was my rock, my other half, my soul mate.

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I'm here for you and I love you.

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2016/05/03 - Walter Christopher Davis - Age 37 yrs - Chelsea, Massachusetts

Submitted by: Melody Davis - Spouse

Name: Walter Christopher Davis
State:  Massachusetts, 02150
Date of Passing: 05/03/2016
Date of Birth: 01/03/1979
Age: 37 

Tell Us About Them:

"Chris" was always making people laugh, always there to listen and give advice. He loved to go fishing and do yard work, especially planting flowers.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He had struggled with addiction since he was 10 with alcohol, and at 14 with prescription drugs and at 23 with crack and heroin. He had moved to Virginia Beach in August 2010. He been clean since February 2012, until he was offered heroin yet once again. He was on a downward spiral, he ended up returning to Boston April 30th and by May 2nd, 2016 he was found in the bathroom unresponsive, they tried several rounds of Narcan but could not reverse the overdose, he was pronounced dead May 3rd, 2016.

What Made Them Smile?

his family

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His laugh, him holding me, and kissing me

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you and I never gave up on you!

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2016/01/21 - Natosha Taylor - Age 29 yrs - Dayton, Ohio

Submitted by: Tricia Cridlin - Parent

Name: Natosha Taylor
State:  Ohio, 45414
Date of Passing: 01/21/2016
Date of Birth: 03/20/1986
Age: 29 

Tell Us About Them:

Tosha was one of the most caring people you would ever meet she was in the gifted programs in school she had everything going for her till she meet billy and he started her on heroin

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

she struggled for 10 years she was trying so hard to get clean .she thought she was getting heroin but it was pure fenantyl they tried 3 times to get her back

What Made Them Smile?

she was always smiling

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss her hugs the most

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2015/10/03 - Daniel Stein - Age 29 yrs - Galloway, New Jersey

Submitted by: Patricia KohlBirch - Parent

Name: Daniel Stein
State:  New Jersey, 08205
Date of Passing: 10/03/2015
Date of Birth: 1/86
Age: 29 

Tell Us About Them:

Danny was very gifted artistically, and musically.
He loved his family and friends. At his funeral I was told by many of his friends, how he talked them out of their next hit. But he couldn't stop his.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

We tried getting Danny help for many years. He was told numerous times that he was a guy, he was not disabled, and had no children, so get a job.
He was finally diagnosed with bi-polar a year before his death. He was put on seroquel but was quickly taken off that medication when he went into a halfway house. While on that medicine he said he never felt better about himself. He told me many times if it wasn't for what it would do to me, he would take his own life. He said the struggle to get well was impossible.

What Made Them Smile?

Playing with his niece and nephew, my crazy jokes with his stepfather, and hanging out with his friends.

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His smile, his bear hugs, and most of all his loving heart.

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

Danny I'm so proud of the many people you've helped. I love you baby.

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2016/01/25 - Matthew Evans - Age 29 yrs - Sidney. Ohio

Submitted by: Alyssa Clark - Sibling

Name: Matthew Evans
State:  Ohio, 45365
Date of Passing: 01/25/2016
Date of Birth: 12/24/1986
Age: 29 

Tell Us About Them:

Matt was my best friend. We didn't have the easiest life but he made sure we had happiness in our youth. He was the father of four beautiful children. He was an amazing dad, big brother, and friend. Matthew never judged, and he loved his kids and his family with all his heart.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Matthew was in a horrible car accident his senior year of high school which severed his hand (he was a basketball player) was on pain killers. Later the same year he was playing football with his friends and got hurt again this time getting pins and rods in his leg. He was then put back on the pain meds. He got into his fair share of trouble when he was younger. He then built a family and started to clean up his lifestyle. He ended up with four kids.

He was married and got his heart broken. Because of the pain we had as children we were afraid to love. So his heart was crushed and he dealt with his pain the best way he knew how, drugs. In July 2014 he told me he met a girl. A conversation about a month later he revealed to me he was on heroin. I didn't tell a soul. I was terrified. Eventually, I spoke. We tried to help. We thought if we could just get him home maybe he would feel a little love and want to get clean. He came home once after that. He wasn't well but every time we talked I always made sure to tell him I loved him. His birthday is the day before Christmas, I tried calling and texting him the 24th, 25th,26th,27th,28th etc. until the 1-3-16 I finally was able to reach him through a Facebook post asking him if he was alive. His response: unfortunately.

I knew then he was so sad. He was tired. I had lost my hero. The Wednesday before he passed I posted "I love you,  Your baby sister" he replied "I love you more" and I said "I miss you so much, I want you to know wherever you go I'm with you in spirit" and that was our last conversation. On Monday January 25th, 2016 I woke up like any other day. Around 12pm I got a call that Matt had been found. He was gone. He no longer had to fight.

What Made Them Smile?

His children 

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss his voice, his love he had for me, and everything about him.

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I'm sorry you hurt so badly. I love you so much. And no matter what anyone says you're still my hero.

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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 Below is a video our nonprofit here created from pictures that members from the private group at Heroin Memorial gave us permission to use in our public YouTube video to help break the STIGMA around addiction.

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2015/10/15 - Tony Brasso - Age 29 yrs - Loxahatchee, Florida

Submitted by: Lori Brasso - Parent

Name: Tony Brasso
State:  Florida, 33470
Date of Passing: 10-15-2015
Date of Birth: 08-04-1986
Age: 29 

Tell Us About Them:

Tony was an affectionate, talented, loving son, he loved to entertain people , if it were by singing, cooking, he loved to please, he would never pass up a chance to hug especially when it came to his two beautiful baby boys, he loved them with all of his heart

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Tonys struggle began with an appendectomy, they gave him so many pain killers, he told me that was when he began his fall, he openly admitted his addiction, yet tried to hide when he was high, he tried, he fought, he cried he lost.....we lost

What Made Them Smile?

his baby boys, his reason to breathe, they are his image, making other people comfortable, happy, my cooking, his cooking and singing, when he was happy he made everyone happy, he loved mornings with his babies, everyday was a fresh new day......

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss my boys big bear hugs, writing silly songs together, lunch dates, the secrets he would share with me, mooning me when i'm cooking, hanging over my shoulder when I'm cooking, his company for me and his baby brother, holidays, he always made them festive, even if I wasn't feeling it, his silly babble with his babies and his beautiful voice singing through the house, I long to pick his socks up off the floor and his boxers behind the bathroom door.......

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

yes, I do, to the last question you ever asked me, i'm so sorry I couldn't save you, I love you more then you will ever know, until I can hold you tight and never have to let go ever again, soon son, I will be with you.....

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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 Below is a video our nonprofit here created from pictures that members from the private group at Heroin Memorial gave us permission to use in our public YouTube video to help break the STIGMA around addiction.

Click here to Purchase Wristbands to support Heroin Support Inc, a 501(c)3 Nonprofit.  Below are some of the wristbands we carry.   

2015/02/09 - Lexi Colvin - Age 20 yrs - Washington, New Jersey

Submitted by: Mariann colvin - Parent

Name: Lexi Colvin
State:  New Jersey, 07882
Date of Passing: 02/09/2015
Date of Birth: 11/28/9402/092015
Age: 20 

Tell Us About Them:

She had beautiful red curly hair. She loved horses and had her own horse named Ruby.she loved me and was a sweet daughter.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

She felt hopeless and sad and didnt know why but she would write letters to me about it.

What Made Them Smile?

Any animal riding her horse in the water.knocking her friends off their horses in the water and me.

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Everything herbeing with me and our talks

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I lwill always love you best friend love mom

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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 Below is a video our nonprofit here created from pictures that members from the private group at Heroin Memorial gave us permission to use in our public YouTube video to help break the STIGMA around addiction.

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2016/05/08 - Laura Davis - Age 23 yrs - Millstadt, Illinois

Submitted by: Sarah Davis - Parent

Name: Laura Davis
State:  Illinois, 62260
Date of Passing: 05/08/2016
Date of Birth: 03/03/1993
Age: 23 

Tell Us About Them:

Beth always did things her own way. When she was just a toddler she would get up in the middle of the night to watch "the funny guy" (Jay Leno) on TV while the rest of us were asleep! We had to put locks on the tops of all of the doors just so she wouldn't wander off!

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Unfortunately we don't know much about her struggle with addiction. We now understand that she had probably been exposed to it over three years ago. We just found out a few months before she died. Although we tried to help her find a rehab facility, she was not interested in participating in any type of program. We've learned so much since she's passed away...I just wish we would have known more before she passed away and would have been able to help her.

What Made Them Smile?

Beth's dog, Windy, always made her smile! She also loved her nephew and nieces as well as her little sister, Katie! She would have been a great mom!

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I think I miss the opportunities the most...the opportunity to see her happy, the opportunity to see her in a job she loved, the opportunity to see her become a mom.

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you...we ALL love you!

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2008/10/16 - Jordan Selserman - Age 22 yrs - Waterford, Connecticut

Submitted by: Allan Selserman - Parent

Name: Jordan Selserman
State:  Connecticut, 06385
Date of Passing: 10/16/2008
Date of Birth: 2/6/1986
Age: 22 

Tell Us About Them:

Beautiful Son

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Addicted to pain pills then heroin

What Made Them Smile?

Life

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His Smile

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love You!!!

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2016/05/01 - Zachary Smith - Age 22 yrs - Windber, Pennsylvania

Submitted by: Heather Smith - Parent

Name: Zachary Smith
State:  Pennsylvania, 15963
Date of Passing: 05/01/2016
Date of Birth: 05/08/1993
Age: 22 

Tell Us About Them:

My son was a charismatic, fun loving, hard working, kind, and polite young man. He would light up a room when he walked in. His laughter was contagious. His heart was so big. He had a dry sense of humor and quick wit.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He started using weed and pills at 16. We didn't realize how far his addiction had gone until after about 5 years later. He requested to go to rehab after Christmas 2015. He went to rehab 1/3 and returned home on 2/5. He seemed to be doing great. No signs of drug use until he was in a tragic accident in which he was a driver that killed a 4 year old little boy. From that point on, he troubles with nightmares and sleeping. He was in counselling and going to doctors to help with his anxiety and depression. On 5/1, just 1 week before his 23rd birthday, I found him dead from a heroin overdose.

What Made Them Smile?

Everything made Zach smile. He would light up a room as soon as he would walk in. If someone was having a bad day, he was the first one there and would make sure they were laughing and carefree within minutes.

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss his voice, his smile, his smell. Most of all, I miss him calling me "Mamma Bear".

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I would give him the biggest hug and I would tell him that he had people. People that would not judge him and get him the help that he so needed.

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2016/03/08 - LaRhonda Renee Vohl - Age 30 yrs - Independence, Kentucky

Submitted by: Peggy Vohl - Parent

Name: LaRhonda Renee Vohl
State:  Kentucky, 41051
Date of Passing: March 8, 2016
Date of Birth: May 5,1985
Age: 30 

Tell Us About Them:

LaRhonda was my second bitten child my first daughter. She was beautiful and funny. She loved helping people and animals.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

LaRhonda suffered all her life with learning disabilities, bipolar disorder and ADHD. She struggled with the way she was on and off meds in and out of psychiatric hospitals and treatment centers. She never felt like she fit in and she began drinking at age 16 than by b18 was smoking pot. I think she had tried every drug at least once. She had tried many times to kill herself and over dose. She lost custody of her daughter and hardly ever got to see her and the part 4 years she never seen her unless it was in a picture I showed her.

What Made Them Smile?

Animals always made LaRhonda smile if it was up to her she would have a houseful of pets. She was funny and would do the diluted things to get other people to smile.

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss her laugh. I miss her face. I miss how she helped me and I miss Wycombe her spending time with her little sisters.

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I always loved you even through the rough times. I never wanted this life for you I wanted you to be happy all the time I don't understand why you went back and I'm sorry I called you a dumb ass because your not.

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2016/06/04 - Matthew Mercer - Age 37 yrs - Cincinnati, Ohio

Submitted by: Elizabeth Gilreath - Sibling

Name: Matthew Mercer
State:  Ohio, 45205
Date of Passing: 06/04/2016
Date of Birth: 08-19-1978
Age: 37 

Tell Us About Them:

Matthew has struggled with addiction for many years. He was a kind, lovely, funny and giving when he was clean. He would light up a room as soon as soon as he walked into it. His laugh was unique and it was totally contagious. He loved like no other. He would give you the shirt of his back. He loved you like there was no tomorrow. He will be greatly missed and is loved by so many people.

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Matthew has been an addict for 20 years. He struggled day to day and lost his battled on June 4, 2016.

What Made Them Smile?

Being clean

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His laugh

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2016/05/31 - ASHLEY Selter - Age 26 yrs - Louisville, Kentucky

Submitted by: April Hays - Parent

Name: ASHLEY Selter
State:  Kentucky, 40215
Date of Passing: 5/31/2016
Date of Birth: 21190
Age: 26 

Tell Us About Them:

She had a beautiful soul she had a six year old daughter she was beautiful

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

She struggled for about a yr when they took her baby is when she became a addict it was all down hill from there in and out of rehab several times

What Made Them Smile?

Her baby girl

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Her smile her voice her out going attiude

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

Please come home we will fix it again I promise you.the last time before she passed her so called friends left her behind in a abandoned house cops turn there head to it and there is two treatment houses that sit in front of this place

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2015/09/07 - Gary Locklear - Age 32 yrs - Rosedale, Maryland

Submitted by: Ruth Koester - Other Family

Name: Gary Locklear
State:  Maryland, 21237
Date of Passing: 09/07/2015
Date of Birth: 06/21/1983
Age: 32 

Tell Us About Them:

Awesome Father, Grandson, Son, nephew, Cousins-Brother for a Cousin, lifetime friend for ever

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

After 10 + years watching u battle Heroin you Beat Heroin yet overdosed on Methadone (silent killer). You were not prescribed Methadone & somehow were able to buy off the streets which Murdered you. Whoever sold it to you is still making money off their next victims. Now I have to keep my head clear of depression to fight the demon that reminds me how you died? I’m not sure how to do that? But with God’s help all things are possible. I know you’re at peace. Amen

What Made Them Smile?

His daughter Zoey & playing the guitar...now u play in heaven but forever in our hearts until we see you again.

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Loosing YOU! Playing guitar with Family never complaining Free Spirit never judged others for mistakes. Always a blessing of joy in the worse times.

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I can't believe this happened. It wasn't your time. I miss you so much! Your mother is a wreck! She thinks it's her fought & I can't deal with the grief not just loosing you but the grief. It's like a nightmare without an ending. But I know you're at peace. Praise be to Our Lord of All Hope "Jesus" amen.

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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2015/01/13 - Ryan Cowger - Age 32 yrs - Fresno, California

Submitted by: Janice Paulson - Parent

Name: Ryan Cowger
State:  California, 93710
Date of Passing: 01/13/2015
Date of Birth: 08/12/1982
Age: 32 

Tell Us About Them:

He was a 4.0 student with a heart of gold. A gentle soul. Loving and Kind

Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He went from prescribed OxyContin to heroin. Heroin killed him. He had been clean for a year. He took that fatal dose

What Made Them Smile?

Music. He was an amazing guitar player

What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Everything, I miss everything about him

If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you more than life

#AskMeAboutMyAngel #HeroinMemorial #GoneToSoon

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 Below is a video our nonprofit here created from pictures that members from the private group at Heroin Memorial gave us permission to use in our public YouTube video to help break the STIGMA around addiction.

Click here to Purchase Wristbands to support Heroin Support Inc, a 501(c)3 Nonprofit.  Below are some of the wristbands we carry.